the facebook effect

OK so it's addictive but has the following effect:

Friend A has more friends than me;
Friend A used to be my friend and is friend with Friend B but is not friends with me
Friend B has mailed Friend C twice, but has not mailed me;
Friend C is having more fun than me;
Friend C is thinner than me and has more friends than me
My life is dull compared to Friend A, B and CS.
Must find more friends on here, dreg up old classmates who I didn't even like and put them on just so I look like I have lots of friends.

It's not a good site whilst working on self esteem issues but strangely addictive and brings out the competitiveness in me and need to be liked, to be seen to be successful and 'having it all' It's like the American dream that brought Willy Lomas or whatever his name was in that Arthur Miller Play to his death and like that fear of 'el que diran' in La Casa De Bernada Alba (Lorca) (from my Spanish A level days don't you know..)

Anyway so facebook isn't helping and I am more educated than I give myself credit for.

time flies

..it's nearly July. Doing Course so no blog posts, also not had the Internet as moved flat (wonders will never cease). For all those who have been waiting for next post with baited breath.hee hee. no one has read it apart from me :-) Rome wasn't built in a day. As my sponsor kept annoyingly but correctly kept saying to me. How right she was.
Grateful
Rain
Female housemates
sponsor
getting life in perspective
forgiving dad (when I say things that hurt)
having the opportunity to not say things that hurt to my dad and sister who I love more than anyone else in the world.
Knowing my mum for 55 years
Not feeling depressed
Hard work
Music
Eastenders
Mad women on eastenders
toffee